-Marjorie Pay
10 years ago
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Couldn't have said it any better!
"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails. I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived."
--Marjorie Pay Hinckley
--Marjorie Pay Hinckley
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Surviving with a Smile
4 ER visits Fraud on Checking, Savings and Money Market account cancer scare biopsy family drama no money flooded basement mud no clothes no toys no beds death
I’ve had a few people ask me how I’m surviving and getting through everything that has happened to my family the last couple of months so I thought I’d take some time to express my thoughts and feelings and to explain how I’m getting through it all.
My brother-in-law came over yesterday to help with the mud clean up and one of the first things he says to me when coming through the door was “So are you feeling like Job?” my answer is simply “yes, I guess I am.”
Up until that moment I hadn’t thought much about Job or anything biblical. I actually had to go and read up on Job to make sure that I remembered the Old Testament story correctly. After reading up on Job I do see how it really can fit but it hadn’t been the knowledge of what Job had gone through that has helped me through these challenges, instead it’s been something my Bishop had taught once when I invited him in to one of my lessons that I taught to the Young Woman.
During this lesson the topic turned to “Why do good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people?” I’ve personally always had that question in my mind and yes there are lots of answers as to why, but it was what Bishop Meyersick said that has helped me the most in understanding that question and thus has helped me through these repeated challenges. Bishop explained it in a very simple way “Satan will reward those who are doing bad to keep them from making a change. Satan wants to keep them under his power.” He then explained why bad things happen to good people “The Lord doesn’t want bad things to happen to his children. The Lord isn’t out to cause us pain and grief, it’s just part of the plan and what we signed up for when coming to earth. We are here to learn and grow. Satan has another plan though and he does cause bad things to happen. He wants bad things to happen to good people and spends extra time on the righteous to temp them to curse their God and to turn their back on Him. He wants us to change our path.” (not direct quotes but what I remember!!) I have not been the same since that lesson. I’ve looked at challenges differently.
God Loves Me. God Loves My Family and these challenges can either get us down and turn us from our Lord or it can make us stronger. I have chosen to have it make me stronger and so has my family.
This doesn’t mean that I’m not tired of the challenges. This doesn’t mean that I haven’t had a few tears. This doesn’t mean that I haven’t said “enough is enough”. This doesn’t mean that I haven’t done as Job did and ask “why”. I’m only human but we can not change what has happened or what will happen, we just must have faith. Faith, that with the Lords help, we can get through anything that is placed before us.
To quote a friend of mine "Disappointment and discouragement are tools of the devil. He's a jerk. Why would I let him in anyway?"
I’ve had a few people ask me how I’m surviving and getting through everything that has happened to my family the last couple of months so I thought I’d take some time to express my thoughts and feelings and to explain how I’m getting through it all.
My brother-in-law came over yesterday to help with the mud clean up and one of the first things he says to me when coming through the door was “So are you feeling like Job?” my answer is simply “yes, I guess I am.”
Up until that moment I hadn’t thought much about Job or anything biblical. I actually had to go and read up on Job to make sure that I remembered the Old Testament story correctly. After reading up on Job I do see how it really can fit but it hadn’t been the knowledge of what Job had gone through that has helped me through these challenges, instead it’s been something my Bishop had taught once when I invited him in to one of my lessons that I taught to the Young Woman.
During this lesson the topic turned to “Why do good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people?” I’ve personally always had that question in my mind and yes there are lots of answers as to why, but it was what Bishop Meyersick said that has helped me the most in understanding that question and thus has helped me through these repeated challenges. Bishop explained it in a very simple way “Satan will reward those who are doing bad to keep them from making a change. Satan wants to keep them under his power.” He then explained why bad things happen to good people “The Lord doesn’t want bad things to happen to his children. The Lord isn’t out to cause us pain and grief, it’s just part of the plan and what we signed up for when coming to earth. We are here to learn and grow. Satan has another plan though and he does cause bad things to happen. He wants bad things to happen to good people and spends extra time on the righteous to temp them to curse their God and to turn their back on Him. He wants us to change our path.” (not direct quotes but what I remember!!) I have not been the same since that lesson. I’ve looked at challenges differently.
God Loves Me. God Loves My Family and these challenges can either get us down and turn us from our Lord or it can make us stronger. I have chosen to have it make me stronger and so has my family.
This doesn’t mean that I’m not tired of the challenges. This doesn’t mean that I haven’t had a few tears. This doesn’t mean that I haven’t said “enough is enough”. This doesn’t mean that I haven’t done as Job did and ask “why”. I’m only human but we can not change what has happened or what will happen, we just must have faith. Faith, that with the Lords help, we can get through anything that is placed before us.
To quote a friend of mine "Disappointment and discouragement are tools of the devil. He's a jerk. Why would I let him in anyway?"
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Fancy Nancy
Kaylee loves loves loves Fancy Nancy, so we are going to have a Fancy Nancy birthday party for her. Here's the invitation I made for her.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Homecoming 2009
This past weekend was really hard for me. Hard...meaning...emotional. Justin, my oldest went on his first date and dance. He went with a very cute, sweet and modest girl. Her name is Kaitlyn, she's 16 1/2 as well and it was her first date and dance too.
Justin was suppose to pick her up and then come back to our house so I could get pictures of them, but he says he "forgot" so I had to get this off Kaitlyn's facebook wall. At least I have this one picture!! Aren't they cute together!!
Having my oldest go out on a date and a dance made me feel OLD. OMGoodness, I have a child old enough to go on a date. I'm so glad he didn't do this when he first turned 16!! At least he waited until he was almost 17 :-)
Justin wasn't sure he wanted to go to Homecoming at first. But he's liked Kaitlyn for a couple of years. They've been texting each other off and all during those two or three years and he knew how much he liked her so he finally told me that he was going to ask Kaitlyn to the dance.
Justin got a teddy bear and some gummie bears and wrote a note that said "I couldn't "bear" going to homecoming without you. Will you be my date?" or something close to that. On Saturday he drove it to where she worked and had Preston run it into her. He waited and waited and waited to hear back from her. He was too scared to text her because he didn't know what she was going to say.
Monday was a holiday which meant no school and he still hadn't heard anything and he was beginning to get worried. He got even more worried when he read a post she had put on facebook about not being able to find a modest homecoming dress. Justin thought for sure he had waited too long to ask and now she was going with someone else.
During our family night the door bell rang. Of course all the younger kids run to the door and open it. There stood a Sheriff. He asked for Justin. Justin went to the door where he saw that it was the same Sheriff that had pulled him over a few times on the dirtbirk. The sheriff asked Justin if he drove a black Toyota Tacoma. Justin said yes and at that point the Sheriff asked him to step outside.
Once outside the Sheriff explained to Justin that his truck had been reported for reckless driving. He asked Justin a few questions and then said "Before we go any further I need to read you your rights." Justin's face dropped, it almost looked like he was going to pass out. "You have the right to remain silent. You have the right to take Kaitlyn to the dance". Of course Justin didn't hear that at first. He was in too big of a shock that he was being arrested. It was Kaitlyn's way of responding with a YES to his request for her to go to homecoming with him. She got him REALLY good.
For their day date their "group" went to Fat Cats which is a bowling alley. They had lots of fun. They took the girls home to get ready and then they all met and went to Teppanyaki for dinner then over to the dance. After the dance the group came over to watch a movie in our backyard. It was FUN for them....but for me............
I sat and worried the whole time wondering if I had done my job. Did I raise him right? Did I teach him how to treat a girl with respect? Did I teach him how to be a gentlemen? Did he hold her door open? Did he help her into and out of the car? Did he pay attention to her? Was he rude? Did her burp at the table? Did he dance with her or did he just stand around? Did he compliment her? Did she see him as a good kid?
It's now been three days and I'm still worried about it. I guess I'll never really know because I wasn't there. I've hopefully done my job though. I wonder if I will ever stop worrying about this kind of thing?
Justin was suppose to pick her up and then come back to our house so I could get pictures of them, but he says he "forgot" so I had to get this off Kaitlyn's facebook wall. At least I have this one picture!! Aren't they cute together!!
Having my oldest go out on a date and a dance made me feel OLD. OMGoodness, I have a child old enough to go on a date. I'm so glad he didn't do this when he first turned 16!! At least he waited until he was almost 17 :-)
Justin wasn't sure he wanted to go to Homecoming at first. But he's liked Kaitlyn for a couple of years. They've been texting each other off and all during those two or three years and he knew how much he liked her so he finally told me that he was going to ask Kaitlyn to the dance.
Justin got a teddy bear and some gummie bears and wrote a note that said "I couldn't "bear" going to homecoming without you. Will you be my date?" or something close to that. On Saturday he drove it to where she worked and had Preston run it into her. He waited and waited and waited to hear back from her. He was too scared to text her because he didn't know what she was going to say.
Monday was a holiday which meant no school and he still hadn't heard anything and he was beginning to get worried. He got even more worried when he read a post she had put on facebook about not being able to find a modest homecoming dress. Justin thought for sure he had waited too long to ask and now she was going with someone else.
During our family night the door bell rang. Of course all the younger kids run to the door and open it. There stood a Sheriff. He asked for Justin. Justin went to the door where he saw that it was the same Sheriff that had pulled him over a few times on the dirtbirk. The sheriff asked Justin if he drove a black Toyota Tacoma. Justin said yes and at that point the Sheriff asked him to step outside.
Once outside the Sheriff explained to Justin that his truck had been reported for reckless driving. He asked Justin a few questions and then said "Before we go any further I need to read you your rights." Justin's face dropped, it almost looked like he was going to pass out. "You have the right to remain silent. You have the right to take Kaitlyn to the dance". Of course Justin didn't hear that at first. He was in too big of a shock that he was being arrested. It was Kaitlyn's way of responding with a YES to his request for her to go to homecoming with him. She got him REALLY good.
For their day date their "group" went to Fat Cats which is a bowling alley. They had lots of fun. They took the girls home to get ready and then they all met and went to Teppanyaki for dinner then over to the dance. After the dance the group came over to watch a movie in our backyard. It was FUN for them....but for me............
I sat and worried the whole time wondering if I had done my job. Did I raise him right? Did I teach him how to treat a girl with respect? Did I teach him how to be a gentlemen? Did he hold her door open? Did he help her into and out of the car? Did he pay attention to her? Was he rude? Did her burp at the table? Did he dance with her or did he just stand around? Did he compliment her? Did she see him as a good kid?
It's now been three days and I'm still worried about it. I guess I'll never really know because I wasn't there. I've hopefully done my job though. I wonder if I will ever stop worrying about this kind of thing?
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Never too old to learn
I've really been struggling this past month. I'm usually able to push through things and not let them affect me but I think the saying "The straw that broke the camels back" came true in my case. It was just too many things all at once and it broke me down and threw me into a depression.
While feeling low and silently needing help to pull me out of this, I realized that instead of people coming closer and trying to help, they kept their distance. They avoided being around me and including me on things. This of course made things worse for me and made me feel even more alone.
I finally hit my lowest point and cried for hours. After I was done crying I got on my knees and prayed. I prayed for help, for understanding of what I've been going through and for peace. I was blessed with those things for which I'm grateful to my Heavenly Father for.
I've realized now that I might have had to go through so many trials in such a short time so I could learn a few things. Those things are 1) My Heavenly Father truly loves me and that if I turn to him he'll be there for me to comfort me (not that I didn't already know this but it's funny how fast you can forget) 2) I will always keep my eye out for those that might be down and make sure to be there for them. I feel that I do this now, but I plan to try harder to find people that need help. 3) I do have some great friends that really do care and do try hard to cheer me up, even when their lives are crazy too (julie)!!! I love you
While feeling low and silently needing help to pull me out of this, I realized that instead of people coming closer and trying to help, they kept their distance. They avoided being around me and including me on things. This of course made things worse for me and made me feel even more alone.
I finally hit my lowest point and cried for hours. After I was done crying I got on my knees and prayed. I prayed for help, for understanding of what I've been going through and for peace. I was blessed with those things for which I'm grateful to my Heavenly Father for.
I've realized now that I might have had to go through so many trials in such a short time so I could learn a few things. Those things are 1) My Heavenly Father truly loves me and that if I turn to him he'll be there for me to comfort me (not that I didn't already know this but it's funny how fast you can forget) 2) I will always keep my eye out for those that might be down and make sure to be there for them. I feel that I do this now, but I plan to try harder to find people that need help. 3) I do have some great friends that really do care and do try hard to cheer me up, even when their lives are crazy too (julie)!!! I love you
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