Winter Blues?

I've always considered myself to be a very Optimistic person. Even when my "thoughts" might try to doubt something, my "words" always express complete optimism. I have always had the belief that if you have positive thoughts, positive results will follow.

When I do feel down I always sing the song "Count Your Blessings" in my head to quickly switch my train of thoughts to more positive and happy ones.

So with all this optimism and "happy" thoughts, why am I so down? All the "normal" things I do to "cheer" myself up just isn't working. No matter how hard I try to be happy, I just want to sit and cry. I'm in a pity party. Feeling as if the whole world is against me. Feeling lonely. What am I doing wrong? Is it just winter blues? How do I make these feeling go away? I hate this feeling. I want to be happy.

Any suggestions on how to pull myself out of this? Will a certain food help? A vitamin? A drug? Something? Anything?

Update

I've been stuck in this pit, thinking that I shouldn't blog until I have time to do a complete update and to blog about all the things I've wanted to blog about...Cookie Exchange, Christmas with the Family, Christmas at Disneyland, Williams Birthday, Julie's bridal showers, Julie's lingerie party, Dave and Julie's Wedding, William's response to Dave and Julie's wedding, My weight loss struggles, Dave and Julie's Reception, Our MANY trips to the hospital in the last month and a half, Bachelor Night with the girls, hiring Jorgen to do graphic and programming work for us, hiring Julie to do Help Desk work for us, Justin starting driving school, My feelings on him turning 16 next week, the little, everyday miracles that keep happening all around our home, and of course the list goes on and on.

The problem with waiting until I have time to blog about all the back stuff is that while waiting I get more things to blog about. :-) So maybe I'll give an update and maybe I won't but I think I'll just post my thoughts as they come and not wait until I'm caught up!!! With that said, I'm going to bed. LOL